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Matchbox

Everything seems to come to my senses... but it's fake.. those trhings doesn´t happen.. not outside myu mind... So it's not worthy to keep trying... I have to give up... 'cause if I don't, I'll end up so lost n' dissapointed... Seems to be about to work, I almost speak, I almost act.. but it's forbidden... n' it makes me like it even more.. Anyway.. it ain't no game... no joke, no crush... it's definetely eatin' my nerve cells.. n' I don't know what a hell should I do.. n' I dont know if I care.. just confused.. I'm not going anywhere...

Sunday

So here I am.. waiting for who knows what... searching for who knows who... I guess I do know... and whatever is gonna happen.. I've got no fuckin' idea... With my expectations up there.. I'm sure I'll be dissapointed in a few hours... Tonight I'll give myself a chance.. I guess I still have nothing to lose... and maybe it happens... who knows... I'm a bit nervous.. n' I have no idea if it's worthy... And by now, others are waiting for me... I was there earlier.. n' got tired of waiting.. So I left... n' now they wait, for my big entrance... I'm so back in the game...

Priceless

I'm not really sure
if it's all I have,
But it's all I need
to cheer up tonight...

A bad joke to remember
A week to wait
A lousy candy to forget
Nothing else to say

A couple of songs
A trip to plan
Tons of chemistry
One minute to laught

The drive of loving you
A simple ship
The fear of losing you
Your taste on my lips

Best birthday ever
No stuff to hide
Untamable desires
But lack of time

Half a smile on your face
Some glow in my eyes
Missin' you already
I can't wait 'till next time

I'm not really sure
if it's all I have,
But it's all I need
to cheer up tonight...

Waking up...

I took my shirt out, I went out of the car, and slammed the door at his face... I wasn't angry, I was just sad... I started walking... I felt like I wasn't far from home...
I was half naked, but I didn't care... It wasn't cold at all... There was water everywhere, like it had recently rained...I just walked... There where many trees around, and this sort of statues... that where moving and dancing all over the place... I was astonished with their beauty, it was hypnotizing...
So two of them, two girls, came closer, and as I passed, they started dancing and singing behind me... I couldn't avoid to break into tears... they where like a couple of angels...
Suddenly I started feeling scared, they where turning into something evil... and they where after me... trying to catch me, hurting my naked back... I was terryfied, n' I tried to run... I was screaming so loud... In vain, 'cause they got me...
As this gorgeous creatures took control of my being, I fell into a deep n' weird dream... I was so unconscious, n' I woke up... next to someone I've never seen, n' some known face I barely remember now... I had this annoying feeling of fear n' desperation.. And I saw the ring, next to us, in a little box... Apparently it was a sign, that some kind of curse was cast on us... And that we'll never get rid of it...
I knew this also happened to someone else, someone I couldn't reach... someone I should talk to... So I woke up again, next to another random person, and to the one I share the curse with... I was wondering how did it work, it was happening over and over... It will never end...
So I started asking people if there was something I could do to stop it, to break the damn circle... but apparently there was no solution, n' the deja vu was gonna continue...
So here I am, n' I don't know if I'll suddenly wake up next to this people and the fucking ring... not knowing where to run, who to trust, how to stop...

Sdrawkcab :S

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Wait...

-What are you doing? -Time, I answered... I'm waiting.... that's not something I actually use to do. Yes, I know you know... Anxiety rules me everytime... But now I'm waiting for the seconds to pass by... Alone, shaking, shivering, by the way... Trying to figure out if I care or if I don't...
It's what I've been doing all day.. wait... I've waited for you.. that's it... I don't know.. I guess I'm not ok with waiting.. You see me, n' I'm always in such a rush... having so much to do, beggin' for more time... It's kind of stressing, but not less stressing than waiting... Waiting is something so empty... but so relaxing in some sick way... But it drives me nuts, waiting to get up, waiting to go home, waiting for lunch, waiting for the weekend, waiting at the market line, waiting for vacations, waiting for your answers, waiting to get laid, waiting for the summer, waiting for my mum to leave, waiting for a call, waiting to see you again... There's nothing we can do to use wisely all that time that we waste waiting... So I'll just be here, out in the dark night, fuckin' waiting...

15-06

I'm very sleepy now... I haven't slept for 25 hours, so probably you can imagine my headake. My eyes are closing against my will, n' I'm forcing them to stay alert... My nose is red n' freezing, 'cause is pretty cold out there... I probably smell like.. baby?... whatever you say... jaja... My lips are asking for more... a goodnight kiss is never enought... My hands are shaking, and they look whiter than usually... I did my nails today, so they look neat, but no for long... I wear a skirt, definetely a bad idea... I can't feel my feet, 'cause my sneakers are extremely cheap, n' now wet... I'm staring at my tea cup, fooling around with my tongue... My theeth hurt a lot, 'cause of the temperature.. I can tell... I don't wanna fall asleep, thet shouldn´t happen.. I've got to stay up.. Just a couple of more hours...