Dissapoint me once again...

Today I write another song about dissapointment...
Why do I always make the same mistakes?
I risked my life, I thought this time it would be different...
And you betray me again right in my face...

After everything I've done for you,
You've got no freaking excuse.
This have been a total waste of time,
Maybe someday I will get used...

Getting used to being dissapointed... I just don't get it.. "Should have seen, just what was there, and not some holy light...".. It happens to me all the times.. I mean.. I get so enthusiastic about things.. n' I'm always expecting so much from every situation... SO, then.. My enthusiasm is proporcional to my frustration... And the worst is that I always leave so much things to focus in one... I finish wondering if everything I do is fucking worthy... Anyway.. I also overeact the frustration.. So I guess it's not so bad afterall.. But that's not the way I freaking feel...
Anyway... I'm here, still trying.. When the hell will I give up?...